Complications

Another poem that I wrote last night this one is very personal and close to the heart a brief poetic summary of part of the last 6 years of my life.

I put my faith in you,
tried to see this through.

Turned my back,
left myself open for attack.

I tried to understand,
what you had planned.

Wasn't fully sure of it,
wasn't ready to admit.

So many times I watched,
every time it was botched.

Tried so many times to warn,
but you were always torn.

You'd been through so much hurt,
must have felt like dirt.

All the pain would radiate,
could cause so much hate.

Thought you might see it coming,
but you never went running.

Must have let down your guard,
every time you fell hard.

Always I would be there,
sometimes wonder why you'd care.

Stood by your side,
even when you tried to hide.

Never knew I adored,
that was always ignored.

Sometimes thought I might cry,
but never a tear to my eye.

I made a huge gamble,
how I started to ramble.

It was a big mistake,
this stress could not take.

I felt it was crucial,
feelings not mutual.

Began to retreat in my head,
didn't want to leave bed.

I had come to understand,
my love must be banned.

Still there for you,
every time will come through.

If you need me there,
I will never scare.

Always try to articulate,
when things complicate.

I've given much thought,
to my mind has been brought.

Always been so close,
wouldn't want to impose.

Hope you'll always be there,
to stop this nightmare.

Can you please understand,
I sometimes reprimand.

Don't let if give fright,
you'll always be my light.

I will still always pray,
that you may let me stay.