kirus random thought page

im lonely, keep having strange dreams with zan in them, and want to watch a movie in a diaper with a friend :'(

Me too! Not the dreaming about Zan bit (actually, I think I had a dream involving you once, Kiru), but I really wanna watch a movie with someone in diapers!

Really? Me? I didn think they happened tha often

yep @ least three times a week now. creepy?

Kinda sorta, not really :3

ya sure? i kinda wake up sad knowing none of its real.. basicly my brain tricks me into thinking i have a very good friend...

you guys would hate me if you saw my personality

Bull Kiru, bull

so i had another z-dream (zan dream) it began with us alone in a house. irequested to be diapered even if i didnt want to be. then it got personal durring the undie diaper change, then we went to a big leather couch, we watched a movie (both diapered) then i fell asleep, then i wake up with my head resting in zans lap, then it got personal again, then we both went to bed in a giant crib and cuddeled until we went to sleep

so i wake up feeling like i have a crush on someone that i dont even know and the fa

ct that ive never felt this way for a GUY before, it makes me feel confused and scared.

Meh I wouldn't be too worried Kiru. Odds are it's just your babyfur side hanging loose in your dreams. I think it more or less is casting Zan as more of a brother character seeing as he was the one to diaper you and such. I know I had quite a few diaper dreams while I was at the college.

...Well is it much of a bad thing? I mean I'm not offended, it might or might not happen like that if we were in the same house, all depending on the parties involved but still, I mean you're makin me blush Kiru

dont blame me! blame my brain... im just gonna have to ignore these dream? god im pathetic, just getting crushes on ppl online that ive never met before... i might have to leave again just to learn how to control my emotions...

Nooooooo!!!! *Clings to your leg.* No leave Kiru!

NO! Dun leave cuz of me! Tha's not a bad thing, I'm not blaming you, I'm jus gettin all blushy over it, but I mean, don't leave please...

you know, its funny. ancient china always displayed dragons and tigers fighting oneanother, yet me and lig get along well...

but i still think i should leave, i dont wanna be viewed as some big online predator pervert, and i dont want to go through wanting something that just wont come... and no zan its not because of you, its because i mentaly tourturing myself.

Kiru, we wouldn't have the stuff we say on this page if we ever thought that, it's okay to have crushes sometimes, just you sorta need to get yourself out of it or accept it y'know?

What you and Lig have is friendship. It is like all of us on the board. It is nothing that you did or you did not do. If you leave, the friendship might be tarnish. Stay because if it is friendship or love, it is peace. Dragons and tigers might be chinese signals, but bears and wolves are native american signals that I still stay here, even that nobody else have the same common.

thing is every crush i had has always turned out horrible, and from that fear comes the "logic" of relationships are nothing but bad news...so ive always kept to myself when it came to relationships always saying that id rather be alone.

Kiru, I don't know if you've gotten this, but I'd never hurt you, if you don't want it conciously, then don't. I won't be mad, I like you as a friend. I would never want to loose you that's all, I'd freak. I love you too much as a brother

You might love stay alone, but there are people even on this forum who are your friends. If you need help, you can turn to anyone on this forum for help and many of them will help you easily. I been on the same road, I was alone for 2 years right after I became a fur and then I made a friend name Kijibwa. We decided to stay friends, even when things get tough. You just need a friend who you get along the most with.^_^

Kiru ya don't need to leave just cuz of some dream. If ya don't want a relationship then the simple thing to do is just don't get into one. Just stay friends like ya always have. I think your making more out of this then is really there. I seriously doubt anybody will be hurt just by you telling us a dream ya had. Sometimes dreams are just dreams.

My friend is having dreams of the devil and death. I talk with him about the dreams and that the dreams will never hurt a person.

i dont know, is desperation to love? i dont want to hold zan back for anything. i mean is there such a thing as long distance relationship...

Yes there is a such thing. I have a relationship with my friend and I live in Illinois. he lives in Canada. He is the same friend that seen the devil and death in his dreams.^_^